It use to hurt so much when my friends weren't there for me the way that I thought or felt that they should. So often I would cry because I felt they didn't care about me. That couldn't be further from the truth. God show me just how much the love and and depend on me.
God revealed this to me just this week. Have you ever noticed the parralel be the spirit realm and the temporal. Quite often we don't go to God until there is a need. (I am guilty of that as well-not throwing stone)I wonder if it hurts God's feelings. But we go to Him when our back is against the wall. Thankfully we did(finally) go to God. He knows that we know that He can meet all of our needs and he is there waiting patiently for us to realize that. This is no difference than out natural friends. They come to you when they want a need to be met. They choose specifically who to go to when there is a need. But what happens is every now and then your need is not met. Why is that I ask myself does this happen. Because we have not secured our relationship with God or our relationship with our friends. God is teaching us that we need to depend on him consistently. He wants to fortify the true essence of the relationship. The true essence of our relationship is trust. That is the same thing that our natural friendships lack. So I am learning to trust God. I don't want to be a rebound friend of God. I want to be a true friend to God where I am His friend and He is mine.. God I don't want be my rebound friend anymore. In you word you called me friend (John 15:14) I love u God...
Monday, February 22, 2010
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Friendship may not last but Purpose does!!!
I been thinking a lot lately about the people that God has placed in my life. I was say that God has placed each one of them in my life for a specific reason. I know that the God that I serve is strategic when doing any and everything. God has strategically placed 5 people in my life. I will list them all by name because its my blog(haha).
I will name Olivia first because she is my best friend. I owe a lot of who I am to her. As do I owe the same thing to everyone else I will mention but Olivia is special because she is my wife, mother of my children, and my spiritual partner. There are so many things that I could have added to the list of why she is special But those are the most important. She has taught me some very important things in my life. The most important thing that she has taught me is to believe in myself. I will forever be grateful for her in this regard. I love you!!!
When I name the next set of people it is not in any particular order.
Marcia has been placed in my life to teach me that because you have had a hurtful past you can make it. She has taught me how to push through life's circumstances. She is very special to me. We share so much in common. We have been a shoulder to each other for years. I heard someone say if you can see someone at your mother's funeral you really love them. Cia, I can truly say I can see you. Thanks
Maurice! (I have no idea why I put that exclamation point there but I wanted it there....lol) You have taught me to be a friend to people. You have taught me that no matter what you go through you can be forgiven and restored. You have taught me to stand. You have mainly taught me how to trust God in every area of my life.
Marva you have been in my life the least amount of time. You have taught me one of the most important things in life. You have taught my to stay focused. You have showed me to get the where I need I will need to be determined and to have tough skin. People may never understand you or I but God understands us both. That is the encouragement that I need and have everyday of my life.
Arteya you have taught my be consistent. You have taught me to believe in purpose. You have believed in me. That is so amazing. I never truly felt accepted in life until you and your family took me in as your own. The message you gave to me to help other when they need it. I am truly thanks for that. You have also taught me to when people mess up to forgive them(I am still working on this one).
I am so blessed to have each and everyone of you in my life. You all have help to usher me into my destiny. I am going be great in God. I am only because of you. I am thankful for that. I sat down and thought about each one of you this morning. I want to tell each of you that I love you. No matter what happens in you temporal lives. Ya'll have help my to begin to fulfil purpose. Our friendships could end tomorrow but the things you have given me will last a lifetime. No matter where life takes me you all will be there with me in my hearts!!! LOVE YA!!!!
Friendships may not last but Purpose does!!!
I will name Olivia first because she is my best friend. I owe a lot of who I am to her. As do I owe the same thing to everyone else I will mention but Olivia is special because she is my wife, mother of my children, and my spiritual partner. There are so many things that I could have added to the list of why she is special But those are the most important. She has taught me some very important things in my life. The most important thing that she has taught me is to believe in myself. I will forever be grateful for her in this regard. I love you!!!
When I name the next set of people it is not in any particular order.
Marcia has been placed in my life to teach me that because you have had a hurtful past you can make it. She has taught me how to push through life's circumstances. She is very special to me. We share so much in common. We have been a shoulder to each other for years. I heard someone say if you can see someone at your mother's funeral you really love them. Cia, I can truly say I can see you. Thanks
Maurice! (I have no idea why I put that exclamation point there but I wanted it there....lol) You have taught me to be a friend to people. You have taught me that no matter what you go through you can be forgiven and restored. You have taught me to stand. You have mainly taught me how to trust God in every area of my life.
Marva you have been in my life the least amount of time. You have taught me one of the most important things in life. You have taught my to stay focused. You have showed me to get the where I need I will need to be determined and to have tough skin. People may never understand you or I but God understands us both. That is the encouragement that I need and have everyday of my life.
Arteya you have taught my be consistent. You have taught me to believe in purpose. You have believed in me. That is so amazing. I never truly felt accepted in life until you and your family took me in as your own. The message you gave to me to help other when they need it. I am truly thanks for that. You have also taught me to when people mess up to forgive them(I am still working on this one).
I am so blessed to have each and everyone of you in my life. You all have help to usher me into my destiny. I am going be great in God. I am only because of you. I am thankful for that. I sat down and thought about each one of you this morning. I want to tell each of you that I love you. No matter what happens in you temporal lives. Ya'll have help my to begin to fulfil purpose. Our friendships could end tomorrow but the things you have given me will last a lifetime. No matter where life takes me you all will be there with me in my hearts!!! LOVE YA!!!!
Friendships may not last but Purpose does!!!
Friday, February 12, 2010
J.T. vs Jayte
I thought about this this morning and I decided to put all my thoughts down for someone to possibly read. IF not its cool. I have recently learned that God has a great purpose for me. I think I always knew it but I was afraid to really accept it. It was crazy that always had dreams of a life that I could imagine. I didn't understand why the things in my life happened. I never understood why people treated me the way that they did. Its really crazy a few years ago we were asked to do presentations in church. I chose to do Joseph. I read that story and I began to see so much in me. How people did everything to break him but they couldn't. People lied on him. Then when people had counted him out God elevated him( while he was in jail (bondage). I was bound but now God has truly set me free. This is where I am right now. I am noticing God is elevating me to a higher place. I am so thankful.
Going up I had so many nicknames. JT, Horse(ya'll I don't know why), Jay (which was my favorite)and JP just to name a few. JT was the most popular. Family, friends, and enemies all called me that. I wanted to change me name to that for a period of time. I hated when people called me James. Well I didn't really want to be associated with me dad. I had one main reason. I didn't want to be like my father. My father has done some really incredible thing and some really bad things and I wanted no part of that.
Back in 2001 I made a great decision to move to Miami. When I moved there I was 20 years old. I am not really sure why I did this but I wanted it JT to have a spelling. I felt like that was too simple. I am a great person(patting myself on the back-haha). Nah but it really was too simple I am quite complicated. So I changed the spelling to Jayte. But from the moment I stepped food in Miami I was a different person. I can remember it was the first time I had ever seen someone that I could clearly identify as homeless. That was the most eye and mind opening experience. Now today February 20,2010 I realized I am more like Joseph that I ever thought. God show him something and him life changed because of it. My experience was totally different. I was lying in bed a few moments ago and I realized why I could not finish this blog when I first started it. God revealed to me I have changed your name. Just like I changed Abram to Abraham for a person I have changed you to Jayte for a person. I was like in awe. I am sitting here should I be writing this on Sabbath morning. But I realized I am giving God the glory. This is my testimony, proclamation, and prophecy. God I thank for the person you have made me and moreso the person you are making me into.
This is my scripture to ponder over today.
Matthew 22:14 For many are called, but few are chosen.
Going up I had so many nicknames. JT, Horse(ya'll I don't know why), Jay (which was my favorite)and JP just to name a few. JT was the most popular. Family, friends, and enemies all called me that. I wanted to change me name to that for a period of time. I hated when people called me James. Well I didn't really want to be associated with me dad. I had one main reason. I didn't want to be like my father. My father has done some really incredible thing and some really bad things and I wanted no part of that.
Back in 2001 I made a great decision to move to Miami. When I moved there I was 20 years old. I am not really sure why I did this but I wanted it JT to have a spelling. I felt like that was too simple. I am a great person(patting myself on the back-haha). Nah but it really was too simple I am quite complicated. So I changed the spelling to Jayte. But from the moment I stepped food in Miami I was a different person. I can remember it was the first time I had ever seen someone that I could clearly identify as homeless. That was the most eye and mind opening experience. Now today February 20,2010 I realized I am more like Joseph that I ever thought. God show him something and him life changed because of it. My experience was totally different. I was lying in bed a few moments ago and I realized why I could not finish this blog when I first started it. God revealed to me I have changed your name. Just like I changed Abram to Abraham for a person I have changed you to Jayte for a person. I was like in awe. I am sitting here should I be writing this on Sabbath morning. But I realized I am giving God the glory. This is my testimony, proclamation, and prophecy. God I thank for the person you have made me and moreso the person you are making me into.
This is my scripture to ponder over today.
Matthew 22:14 For many are called, but few are chosen.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Fulfilling Destiny
I don't even know where to start. I have so many things on my mind. I wanted to find a way to express myself in a different way. I was fully commited on doing this after Bible Study tonight. Lately God has been speaking so much. The last two bible studies that I went to was about faith and determination. I am so excited about God right now. Phillippians 3:14 was crazy to me tonight. I press.... I wil stop right there. The NIV used the word "strain" I fell in love with this word. It was like music to my ears. I have never felt so encouraged. I think about strain I think about not giving up. I think about how tough live is but you can't give up. Remember God said he would never put more on you than you can bare. So if he is not going to put more on you than you can bare he has already equipped you to make it to the end. So I am encouraged to know that God has my back and anything that I need he has already supplied it for me. I will end with my favorite scripture.
2 Peter 1:3According as his divine power hath given unto us all things that pertain unto life and godliness, through the knowledge of him that hath called us to glory and virtue:
2 Peter 1:3According as his divine power hath given unto us all things that pertain unto life and godliness, through the knowledge of him that hath called us to glory and virtue:
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