Betrayed

I have made it up in my heart that when something drops into my heart and mind I am going to write it out. I am learning that my words have life in them and I want to share them.
I was on my way to church this morning and I remembered feeling betrayed. I was sitting there feeling all down for something that was done and over with. I was thinking how much it hurts when people aren't honest. God began to minister to me. How many times have you not been honest with me? You have prayed and not been honest. I was in awe. It was so real. I have prayed and not been honest with God. God already knows our problems yet he wants to know that we trust him enough to tell him. Tell him so he can help you. I am learning to be totally honest with God. Prayers have been like.. OK God... I feel this... God this hurts.... God I am struggling.... God I cant do this without you...

I have made it my mission to walk in a new place this year. I am learning to walk in the place he has called me to. I am thankful today for the made up mind. I have made it up in my heart to serve God at all cost. I am praying that I am going to be all God has called me to be.

Love you all goodnight
J

Yesterday

Yesterday was one of the best and the worse days I have had in a while. I went from one emotional extreme to another. I went from hurt beyond measure to encouraged like never before. I am now grateful for my hurts and pain. I thought I was hurt for one reason but I began to speak to my sister at lunch. I was getting ready to tell her why I was hurt but then the words of God came out of my mouth. " I God see you. I know your hurt and pain. I hear you when call. I understand you hurt but I am with you". I was like wow. I know I cant control people, situations, and circumstances. I truly understand something. I am on my way to greatness but must not be distracted. Circumstances will come but keep focus. When you don't understand pray. " Seek Me" is all I am hearing right now. "Trust Me".... I am saying God I trust you. God I believe your will is perfect even though I am not. My imperfections is what makes you kingdom glorious. It's my imperfections that will draw people to Christ. My testimony will tell of your goodness. I am thankful for this revelation. Tonight as I sleep I am thankful that the spirit will be making intercessions for me. I believe tomorrow is going to be a great day. I love you all that may be reading this....Good night. 7:30 am comes very early in the morning. Pray church!!! lol
Goodnight!!!

The Journey

In life we start out on a journey that doesn't seem to be the far. We start out on the thinking one way. On the path we choice we run into many hurdles and obstacles. These hurdles happen to bring out the things that are truly in our heart. These are things inside our heart like hurt, pain, lack of trust, and insecurities. These things deep in our heart are what make us who we are. These things are our greatest strengths and our even greater weaknesses. In life we can learn to use these things to help motivate us into the greatest that God has designed for us. I have learned over the last almost year that my gift and calling in God was created flawless. But it has been placed inside of a flawed vessel. God has placed my purpose inside of something that means it no good. Wow.. I didn't view my last statement like this until I typed it. Our purpose is great. Our flesh is what is going to teach us how to perfect it. We must learn to operate that greatness inside. The greatness is connected directly to God. Our greatest way to give him glory.
This journey is about understanding our purpose. Our purpose is our journey back to God. Our spirit has been given to us by God. He is allowing us to borrow His Spirit so that we can minister and witness to the souls that don't understand the connection that we have with the almighty Father. I am thankful for this understanding.
My journey is great. I am beginning to understand to my purpose. Not really understand but accept my purpose. I accept the call that is on my life. For the people that may read this don't look into with you "church" eyes. God has not called me to preach or anything like that. I have a unique calling that is not often used in this day. Or not used properly. I am thankful for my purpose. I want to always be in a place to effectively use my gift. This gift comes with such personal sacrifice. I must sacrifice as much time as possible to fasting and prayer. I must continually stay in a prayer mode. If I don't I may become cocky or overly confident and may misuse or abuse my gift. In the church world we have seen this all too often. This is when we begin to understand " gifts and callings are with repentance" ( Romans 11:29). I want my gift to be used used properly so that God my get all of the glory.
My journey has lead me to a serious fast. I have never fasted like this before. But I am sacrificing my food & tv for 7 days. If I turn the tv on and I will not be uplifted there is no point. I am listening to the bible daily because faith comes by hearing Romans 10:17. I am trying not to have vain conversations. I have learned since I dont sleep at night I need to be praying. Everytime I roll over at night I begin to pray.
I will not let the journey get the best of me. So often we let the journey and the hard times beat us down. I will make it to the end of my journey. This journey has great rewards. The race is not given to the swift nor the strong but who endureth to the end..(paraphrased- Ecc 9:11).

My journey is great but I know we all have our journey to take. Let us take our journey in complete confidence that God our Father has ensured us the victory if we endure...

Love you all,
Jayte

There's A Shifting

There's a shifting in the spirit realm. As there is a shifting in the spirit realm there is also a shifting in the temporal realm. When a shifting is happening in the spirit it causes great changes in our lives. Changes that bring us closer to God. Changes that brings us closer to purpose and our destiny. Having a great calling and purpose comes with many sacrifices. When a shift begins to happen it bring up many unresolved issues. You begin to see things totally different. You begin to see you for who you really are. You begin to see people for who they really are. During the shifting or move of God at times you often feel vulnerable. When you are vulnerable for this reason the people misunderstand your gestures, actions, and reactions.
Sacrifices are hard to handle at times. Time is the biggest sacrifice that is made by all. Times in which we are with our families and friends. Time is so important because its time that we can never get back. The times we may miss tucking our children in bed. Lost. The times we don't get to that load of laundry. Lost. That precious time loving the person the closest to you. Lost. All those sleepless night. Lost. You know what is crazy some people never realize the sacrifice that are made until either someone brings it to their attention or they see someone not making any sacrifices.
Having been on both sides of the spectrum it really hurts. When you begin realizing that you have sacrificed too much of your time. Also when you have nothing to sacrifice. Its so crazy that I understand this tonight. I am learning that there must be balance in all things. Why must there be a sacrifice when there is a shifting?? I guess to grow higher you are going to have to give up some things. I am growing and learning to know that I can grow higher and not put everything to the back burner as I once have before. I am thankful for the lesson tonight.
I will say this when there is a shifting going on because to tread carefully. In the spirit realm make the adjustments. In the temporal realm be mindful of the people you are connected to. They may not understand your shifting.

Thanks for listening
Jayte is still transitioning into greatness.