Betrayed

I have made it up in my heart that when something drops into my heart and mind I am going to write it out. I am learning that my words have life in them and I want to share them.
I was on my way to church this morning and I remembered feeling betrayed. I was sitting there feeling all down for something that was done and over with. I was thinking how much it hurts when people aren't honest. God began to minister to me. How many times have you not been honest with me? You have prayed and not been honest. I was in awe. It was so real. I have prayed and not been honest with God. God already knows our problems yet he wants to know that we trust him enough to tell him. Tell him so he can help you. I am learning to be totally honest with God. Prayers have been like.. OK God... I feel this... God this hurts.... God I am struggling.... God I cant do this without you...

I have made it my mission to walk in a new place this year. I am learning to walk in the place he has called me to. I am thankful today for the made up mind. I have made it up in my heart to serve God at all cost. I am praying that I am going to be all God has called me to be.

Love you all goodnight
J