OMG

Praise God!!! I am in a very weird place this morning. Lord have mercy. I have realized the journey in which I must take. I am sitting here and I realize why I am there person I am. I realize why I have been this way my whole life. I have realized by internal struggles were for Gods glory. I have always struggled with the voice in my head. Not truly knowing it was the voice of God. Its amazing how today I am 28 years old and I realize the person God has created me for. I am scared to really see the person I am going to become. I realize I am going to have to spend more and more time with God. I seen for the 2nd time(which both have been in the last month) in my life that I have potential to be a great man of God. I am beginning to see clearer. I am looking for greatness in God. I keep hearing "greater works shall ye do". I am ready to see the greater works. I am thankful for the mighty men of God in my life. I want to say I truly love ya'll. Roman.. Whoa!! Tae my empowered brother. Devain my determined brother. Tarrio my persistent brother. Reese my faith filled brother. I love the boys. I see the great things God is doing with them and for them. Brothers the best is yet to come. I don't know any group of young men that are powerhouses in God all in the same place. World watch out for these brothers. If you come into contact with these brothers your life will never be the same. I keep trying to get to last night. I just want to see God in a new light today. I wake to go beyond the veil today. The holy of holies. I want to be like Moses and see God unlike anyone else. Moses seen God's back. I want to see his hand stretched out before me. Ok I think I am ready for service last night now. OK the whole week I had been down about services from last week all week. It just I felt like something was wrong and I couldn't understand it. But thanks to my brother I did. Yesterday I was determined to not let what happened last week happen this week. I went there in prayer mode. Like God you got to move tonight. I got to church on time praise the Lord. lol.. When I got there the Pastor was praying!!! I was really not paying to much attention to him yet I knew in my spirit he was setting the atmosphere for service. When service began it was pretty God. All of a sudden the praises began to go forth. I was sitting there like ok God I see you. When people began to testify the began to praise God. I was like ok God when the atmosphere is set people have no choice but to praise you. I listen to the testimonies of how God has healed people. I began to truly be thankful. I just wanted to praise God. I hadn't shouted seem like in forever. I was determined to dance before my God. For the great things that he was going to do. I determined in my mind that this was going to be a great night!! I began to praise God as I was going so I feeling to pull to pray. I began to pray and rebuke whatever was there last week. I began to pray the God loose somethings. I begin to pray for freedom in him. I began to pray!!!! I was tried of feeling stuck in the same place. OK I think I can talk for ever and ever. OK so the pastor was trying to dismiss at about 10 something. He asked for remarks. At this moment I am hearing the voice of God. Telling me to say something. I am like God I cant do this. God why me? Lord I don't have the strength to do this. So I raised my hand for remarks. I began to speak under the unction of the Holy Ghost. Crazy isn't it. me Jayte!! lol.. But yes. I began to speak and it was becoming overwhelming. I gave the microphone back. I begin to praise God with my mind saying wow!!! When I got back to my seat. A mighty woman of God said you're not finished. I was really like blown. I know there was more to say. I went and began to minister to someone. I am like gone at this point. I am really gone at this point because of my struggle before I got up and spoke. Then after I spoke I began to question the word of God. God what if you don't do this. God what if we never hear the testimony. Lord what is the testimony happens 80 years from now. Then I remember ok God I must trust you. I am hearing God say so many things at this point. Then there was a prayer session when 2 were filled with the Holy Ghost. One. I have been waiting one for about 5 years. I already knew he had the Holy Ghost but he needed to know for his self. I am thankful for the manifestation. This is only a recap of my experiences from last night...